Fear Of The Dark

I have no fear.
As I walk down this dark road alone.
Although it may appear so,
as I am shaken to the bone.
I have no fear.
No feeling at all.
Ten feet tall but feeling so small.
Somethings coming from the rear,
A light shines my way.
While blinding me it forces me to stay.
Stay where I am.
Stay where I fall.
I have no fear.
Blind and down, alone on this road.
The feelings come flooding back.
The sound of voices call me their way,
but still I stay.
Not from fear of the unknown..
But the voices,
they are my own.

The Hanging Elephant

This elephant is really heavy,
yet still it is able to float.
High above me like the craine that holds the rope.

Can you see it?
Do you know it is there?
Man... This shit does not seem fair.

This elephant is really heavy,
it smiles at me every day.
I guess it is my karma,
that made it decide to stay.
                               
                                      Cassandra Dilbeck
                                   

Baby blues

Something new is what I crave. A change in my simple day. My life has become a chore, some what of a bore. Although I love what I have, I seem to be nothing but sad. In my heart I know that is wrong. I hope this feeling will soon be gone, for I know I am blessed. All I have to do is look down at this sweet little boy, lying on my chest. Cassandra Dilbeck June 28, 2012

A new feeling

There is a certain happiness that comes and goes. This feeling is one I thought I would never know. Baby bumps getting bigger and I am getting sick. Please let this 9 months go by quick. I can not wait to see what's in there, meet him or her for the first time. I want a baby girl but a boy would be just fine. I hope I am good at this, alone I will try.

Life changing month

What is in store for me? Who can say... The happiness I once had has steadily drifted away. I try to go on but my interest have gone astray. I smile, laugh, and act like it is OK but the truth is I feel like I can not live another day. Cassandra Dilbeck November 1, 2011

Pain in the heart

Building this wall back up, brick by brick. Trying not to think of things because it makes me sick. I guess I was not good enough, although that was known from the start. Why the hell was I so willing to give this guy my heart? Cassandra Dilbeck October 4, 2011

Nieve girl

She looked out in the world with nieve glazed eyes. Did not see that the grandma was a wolf in disguise. She told herself that this was something real. Maybe she just wanted a change, maybe just to feel. Always seeing the good because she had never experienced the worst. Think goodness that she did not, put the wolf first. Every lesson learned changes who she is, builds her wall up higher and makes it harder to trust and forgive. Now she sits here, embarrassed and confused. Good thing that she did not let herself get used. Cassandra Dilbeck February 25, 2011